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Dysthymia / Nootropics Anonymous 07/23/14(Wed)18:38 UTC+1 No.14530838 Report

hey guys.
I'm 19, i've had Dysthymic Disorder starting at age 12.
> fuck up school
> fuck up relationships
> fuck up sleep schedule
> stop taking antidepressants because /pol/ redpill, nothing did anything anyways
> So tired, every day
> force myself to /fit/
> Become drug abuser
> force myself clean
> force myself to leave house every day
> force myself to type this
> My only solace in life is the 4/10 16yr old grill that i met online, she thinks im cute. This keeps me alive.

i want my life back /adv/, Whatever life i had in those glorious childhood days. The sleepiness, the lethargy, the fatigue has sucked the joy out of even my favorite things in the world. I dont even have the energy to play vidya anymore.

i take diet pills that my friend got from his dad because of the uncontrolled stimulant in them, i take them in massive doses to use that energy to do the most minor things like take a shower or eat for once.
im pretty sure that i went from manageable dysthimia to something terribly worse by stealing my moms Vicodin throughout senior year, im sure i fucked up my hormones somehow. It takes me an hour to cum when i fap, less with huge amounts of caffeine.

Anyone with the same condition, we know, we could go on and on. Point is i want my energy back. No amount of ritalin and caffeine and excercise has helped me in the past two years.
i have a endocrinologist appt tomorrow, maybe it could be a thyroid issue? i have a feeling its not and im wasting my money.

I found provigil online, going to buy some on friday when my btc comes.
If it doesn't help me boost myself up for even a little while, i'm going to an hero. If so, i will make a thread and you can all roll for all of my possessions and money. Might as well give my shit to the people most like me.

Tell me /adv/, do you think provigil will help? if not for a little while? Do any of you have experience using it to counteract generalized depression?
Anonymous 07/23/14(Wed)20:39 UTC+1 No.14531361 Report

I'm going to be honest with you.
First of all, you need professional help. I know it bc I'm suffering exactly the same shit, but I'm taking a bunch of controlled medication, it doesnt make me feel normal but at least keeps me away of been an hero.
You ask if your online relationship may help you or not... maybe it does at some point. But you need to do something MORE REAL with your life, maybe she makes you feel better and that's okay, take advantage of that feeling, BUT have in mind that it doesn't going to last forever, specially if it's a long distance relationship. She will find another one eventually. I'm not trying to make you feel even worse, but the best thing you can do for you is start to live your life in a "real way", which means go outside, do some excersive, spend less time on the internet, hang out with people, take care of your mental illness, etc. You're young, don't let your disorder fuck the best years of your life. WORK ON YOURSELF. (I hope I can make myself clear, english is not my first language.)
Anonymous 07/23/14(Wed)21:00 UTC+1 No.14531464 Report

Strangely i have no real bond to the girl, she's just so damn sweet. Whenever im feeling specially shitty, she's always willing to boost my ego a bit.

I would go outside, i would go drive to hang out with (probably an acquaintance i havent seen for six months) but i simply don't have the energy to leave my chair.

It's a wonder of the world how i'm not 300 pounds by now.
Depressed Jesus Freak 07/23/14(Wed)21:14 UTC+1 No.14531517 Report

You need to see a psychiatrist and a therapist. You have a mental illness, and that requires medical treatment -- usually antidepressants and cognitive behavioral therapy.

Antidepressants may not be worth it, because they're not as effective in cases of mild depression (e.g. dysthymia) but you should really ask a doctor and not /adv/.
Anonymous 07/23/14(Wed)21:16 UTC+1 No.14531522 Report

I have a really busy doctor that i cant throw out due to insurance niggles and family stuff, shes hard to book and even harder to get a straight answer from.
I was hoping a psychiatrist was bumbling around here or something, maybe they know of the success rate of modafinil for depression.
Anonymous 07/23/14(Wed)22:08 UTC+1 No.14531744 Report

I would agree with the other posters. get some help one to one. I have trouble sleeping and it can affect my life. I hardly see anyone and the only thing i have certain in my life at the minute is going to the gym. I am not as bad a state as you but there is a way out brother. Firstly sort out your sleep scheduale. listen to audio books before bed or even the radio. BBC worldwide has some good relaxing stuff. take walks in a park and get some fresh air. and have a decent breakfast every morning. containing oats and fruit. try to get off the drugs and cleanse your mind.
Anonymous 07/23/14(Wed)22:25 UTC+1 No.14531788 Report

Try CBT first before the psychiatrist.
I am beating dysthimia as we speak with cbt amd the occasional xanax. No ssri.

I am in therapy nonstop simce February though.
Anonymous 07/23/14(Wed)22:39 UTC+1 No.14531853 Report

What's CBT?
Anonymous 07/23/14(Wed)22:42 UTC+1 No.14531878 Report

Cognitive behavior therapy at psychotherapy.

Anonymous 07/23/14(Wed)23:03 UTC+1 No.14531989 Report

amazing that you're going at it with no SSRI, glad you're making it bro.
I hope my insurance can cover all this, sounds expensive.
Anonymous 07/24/14(Thu)03:26 UTC+1 No.14532993 Report

Provigil, to me, is just like any other stimulant. Similar side effects. In the short term, it was great, but I built up tolerance to to it.
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